yesterday tings started to get a bit stressy.
Went for a walk with the dog - it rained sideways.
Signed on to receive the "new" jobseekers allowance - whatever that means?
Got a greedy burn on my gob from a vegan cheese and onion toastie that was consumed too eagerly.
Had a heart attack...
you know the sort of thing....
I lie about the heart attack bit, obviously.... but in all seriousness, i had a bit of a scare.
Upon returning from the dog walk, i towel-dried the mutt, hang all my gear up to dry, got changed into some fresh threads, made a bit of lunch.
Sat down to eat my lunch and my watch started beeping.... i looked at the thing and it was telling me..... heart alarm!! Never seen this before, so grabbed my phone and looked at the numbers..... sitting there at rest, 130-140 beats.... hmmmm .... feeling a bit hot..... hmmmm.
I munched a couple of carrots and the heart rate didn't seem to be changing.
Eventually after over an hour it settled but still quite high.
Now, i;ve had a few aches and pains down me left hand side, pass the dutchie pon etc. Aching arm, pins and needles, a bit of a throb in me gullet...... so i phoned 111.
Long story short..... ended up in A&E and had some blood tests and and an ECG... all routine stuff..... blood tests come back and i am ushered into a room...... basically the numbers were suggesting i might have had a heart attack but then again i might not..... it's all about the numbers and the timing and stuff. Anyway, turns out i probably didn't have a heart attack and the other symptoms don't point exactly in that direction either. So they let me go..... it seemed like a fifty fifty until the final minute as to whether i was gonna have to stay in.....
I left with the words in my ear.... "we're much happier if you come in early and it's this result than coming in too late with another ending"..... so i felt ok. I think we all tend to feel like we're wasting everyone's time when we have niggles, right?
So.... i looked around me at all the stress.... and it's a difficult time just now to be sure.
They tell me that mindfulness is good to cope with stress, so today, i took it easy, did one of them mindful colouring books and drew a mandala.... perfect relaxation.
